Pressure

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I recently got rid of this burden that has always been on my back and making me feel pressured lately.  I have always felt pressured to be the one to start a conversation or keep the conversation going because I hate awkward silences or awkward moments, they just make me feel so…awkward.  I think the reason why I felt this kind of pressure to strategize when talking to someone is because I’m usually a planner with certain things.  I am actually a pretty spontaneous person but with conversations I have to strategize every single thing I say, for example: I think of what I am going to say and then I imagine what the other person will say after what I just said.  Then I plan another response that will probably start a new topic that we could talk about and it just gets more and more complicated.
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I went and talked to my madre about this weird pressure I have been feeling for quite a while and she was all like, “Woah, that sounds pretty complicated, you just need to chill and let the conversation flow by itself.  You know the whole conversation doesn’t depend on you, the other person you’re talking to is probably feeling just as awkward as you are.  The conversation feels way more relaxing if you just don’t think about it too much and just talk!”

 

After my “senpai” said that (heh..hehh), I felt way better.  Now I feel way more “chillaxed” conversing with humans.  Even if there is an awkward silence or there is nothing to talk about, well..that sucks, then you can tell all your friends about your awkward silence and it will be a funny story 😀 .

 

Procrastination Station

I am probably one of the worst procrastinators in the whole entire universe of universes.  It’s even harder to NOT procrastinate when your home schooled because when your home schooled it’s so easy to get caught up in something when your supposed to be doing school.  Like for example, I was supposed to do a history project that was due one day and it was like eight PM and it was due that night, so I thought to myself “Eh, I’ll start doing it at like 9:00 PM or something”.  So I was just surfing through every social media feed I had such as Instagrizzle (Instagram), tumblr, and Snapchazzle (Snapchat).  Then my mom said that we should watch an episode of Gilmore Girls (Don’t judge me, I find the show very interesting) and so I was like “Okay! Sureee” than we ended up watching like three whole freaking episodes that were like forty two freaking minutes each! Than I looked at the flippen clock and it was flippen 11:23 PM! I told my madre that I had to do a history project that was due that night and she was all like “Say WHAAT?! We have to get on that!” Thank Yeezuz my Madre was willing to help me because I think I would have got like a Z grade on overdue-ness.  I am actually writing this blog post instead of doing an english project I’m supposed to do (Fact of the night). And yet to this day, I am still a procrastinator and I am not proud. :’D I hope you enjoyed my story of coolness.  I will try and write more stuff 🙂

Good bye human beings ❤

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